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Entries from February 2008

From the past to the present

February 29, 2008 · Leave a Comment

To smoothen a rough patch, which is buried in the past, is the most difficult thing to do. The whole exercise requires having to brave bitter memories, revisit the issue, and then usually make amends.

3 odd years have passed. The stress, disappointment and heartache have been successfully dealt with and left to rot in the recesses of my brain. Unearthing it seemed a bit of an effort but at the insistence of Specko I figured that maybe it was time to let him know what actually happened. It strangely seemed more like an obligation on my part because he did after all play an important role during that whole fiasco.

So I did recount the story, maintaining a calm voice and an intact spirit. I spoke my mind, dispelled his doubts and pinpointed facets of his personality that I don’t like. But strangely the more I spoke, instead of feeling closer I felt strangely disconnected with everything. We spoke at length about trust and Friedrich Nietzsche expressed exactly the way I feel about the matter when he said “I’m not upset that you lied to me, I’m upset that from now on I can’t believe you”.

Was the conversation enlightening? No. Did it make me feel any better? No. So what am I to make of the conversation…in a way we voiced our issues, sorted them out but actually the issue also involves ‘others’. These other people are the bigger problem, a problem that exceeds the capabilities of just Specko and me. I tend to move around these people on a regular basis because I have to. I don’t hate them. I don’t love them either. I’m just another person in their circle of other people and I’m fine with that.

I guess the point of revisiting the past didn’t help. Maybe it’s just me but if it helped Specko in any way I’m happy, at least some good came out of it.

Something that has always lingered in my mind…I don’t know to what extent Specko was hurt by the whole incident but one thing for certain he didn’t suffer as much as I did, neither did his family and friends. That is exactly why I will feel the way I do.

My final words on this issue: I’m not going to do anything about it because I’ve already suffered the repercussions of actually trying to do something. I know I’m a fighter but this time round I’m going to be a coward.

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X’s remembered

February 25, 2008 · Leave a Comment

Most people, including most of my friends complain about how badly they’ve been treated by guys in relationships. I’ve had two serious relationships. They’ve been wonderful and treated me with respect and kindness and they’ve truly have made an impact in my life. This post is dedicated to two wonderful guys.

My first relationship was with Gypsy Boy. He was the guy next door, childhood sweetheart all that and more. I’ve known him since I was 8 and he’s been there for me weathering everything that was thrown at us. Sometimes when I look back at the past, I feel like I’m greatly indebted to him because most of what he had to go through was because of me, all in an attempt to keep me happy. For that I will be eternally grateful.

Two weeks ago he called me up to say that his family whom I’m extremely close to is going back to India and he was going to America for higher studies.

He doesn’t want to leave but he has to.
I don’t want him to leave but I know he has to.

It’s going to be difficult to say goodbye but I must be strong, for him.

GB I want you to know that I adore you and think you’re the greatest friend ever.

Grinreaper was my second boyfriend. He was the guy who helped me out when I first started work. I fell for the charm and was quite intrigued by his mysterious ways. He treated me well, yes we did have our occasional fights but he didn’t hurt me or break my heart. The impact he has had on my life? He was the one who made me fall in love with writing, I did love it before but he pushed me so hard until I finally accepted that I wanted to be a writer for the rest of my life.

A month ago he got married. He never told me even though I see him everyday. Maybe he thinks it’s a good idea not to mention it probably not knowing how I will react. I’m not upset that he’s married someone else other than me. If he’s happy that’s all that matters but I still wish he would tell me though. Grinreaper if you ever read this, I want to thank you for believing in me and wish you a happy marriage. I mean it, there’s no voodoo in those words.

Wow! It’s almost like a post valentine post.

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Last week…

February 25, 2008 · 2 Comments

Last week was a weird/fun/scary week.

Saturday – My friend’s grandma whom I’ve known for years passed away and I felt bad that I couldn’t make it to the funeral because I had to attend a Chillie seminar. The title of the seminar was “Engaging an audience” by Luke Crethar. It wasn’t that great. He was talking about engaging the audience and kept reading his notes. We had to work on two assignments and I think our ideas were way better than any other team that was there. Since I always end up attracting unwanted attention at Chillies I tried really hard to keep a low profile but Pokey loves attracting attention so when I was reaching for a Mentos, he smacked my hand. My hand hit the porcelain in a loud clang and for the impact the Mentos flew into the air. Everyone looked, Luke stopped talking and watched. I felt like a total idiot. To make matters worse the woman who gave the thank you speech mispronounced my name and made me sound so goday. Pokey made sure he told everyone in office about it so from now on I’m called ……..

Sunday – Don’t remember what I did so lets just move on to Monday.

Monday – It was a crazy Monday. Work just started flowing in and all my other stuff were getting pushed behind. Went for David Guerrero session it was bad felt like I was back in school learning history. Couldn’t believe my ears when fellow advertisers kept asking stupid questions.

Tuesday-The Judges Forum for TV and Press was interesting and John Merrifield sure was fun to watch. Some of the press ads they showed were stuff I’ve never seen before.

Wednesday- Since it was a Poya I was looking forward to some much-needed sleep but that was not to be. My mom woke me up pretty early to tell me that my uncle (her elder bro) had passed away. I honestly didn’t know what to feel at that moment. I wasn’t close to him and I sure wasn’t close to that family all thanks to my aunt (my dead uncle’s wife) who made sure she kept his family away at any cost. My mum said that my grandma was feeling awful about it because after all it’s her son… all that aside I thought I must do what I must simply because he was my uncle. So in the afternoon we visited the parlour along with my mum’s side of the family whom I have a great relationship with. They were all pretty sad and were crying while I didn’t know what to do or say. After a few hours I left with Shorty and Tall One to attend the Judges Forum Radio and Integrated. It was a good session a lot of bashing, a lot of fun when it’s not your work that they’re bashing.

Thursday- Another hectic day. Managed to get through my work without running into too many glitches. Wanted to go badly for John Merrifield session but couldn’t because my mum wanted me to drop in at the parlour. Kermit and his girlfriend was there, he’s such a retarded boy, kept confusing my brother with someone else and I kept laughing. I know such an evil thing to do. My cousins came to stay over at our house that was a lot of fun.

Friday- Went to work, hurried through my workload and then attended the funeral. I was surprised to see so little people. It’s strange I always thought funerals were places where there’s a large number of people who come to pay their last respects but I guess since he wasn’t a likeable person people didn’t really care that he was dead. I couldn’t stand it when my cousin gave a little speech about how their father was such a great man who with humble beginnings became rich and provided them with everything. What a load of crap. What he forgot was that our grandpa had such a huge number of people at his funeral, that goes to show that he died with a good if not great heart and that’s what matters. Not money. It’s great to have it but what you do with it is what counts. Stupid fat family!!!

Wow that’s a lot of pent up anger Curly. Really I feel bad that my grandparents were treated like crap by my uncle and his family. I sure as hell won’t let any man that walks into my life treat my family like dirt, even though they made their mistakes and we had to suffer from it, they are still family.

Saturday- I woke up with a feeling of uneasiness, knowing in a way that the night wasn’t going to be great. Had lunch at Shorty’s and watched Fly Boys until it was time to go and get dressed at the Salon. I really liked how I looked after they dressed me, so that was a good thing. The Chillies was okay, I didn’t win anything, I didn’t go expecting to win anyway. My company walked away with 16 awards and I’m really happy for each and everyone who won metal. The entertainment was beyond horrible. The food was terrible, when are they going to change the caterer’s, funny though that the night’s theme was all about ‘change’. I didn’t have fun and Shorty was feeling horrible so that made me sad. We left as soon as it finished.

Sunday – Went for the assembly in my sleepy stupor. It was good, found some of the talks interesting while some of the other stuff made me yawn but all in all it was good. Drummer Boy was really sweet, he wanted to know how things were and even offered me a job. Sometimes he really makes me wonder, he sweet one moment then completely ignores me the next. Men sure are strange. Voluptuous was also very sweet he wanted to know what I was doing with my life, he basically wanted to know whether I was any naughtier than I usually am…since his girlfriend freaks me out I cut the conversation short, I would have liked to have spoken to him for longer, he’s fun to communicate with and interesting guys don’t come often. You know what, it’s nice to know I’m considered a threat by his girlfriend. The ego boost I needed.

On our way back Specko asked me why I had told Kermit that I wanted him to hit on me.At that moment I really wanted to smack Kermit, why in the world would he change what I said and tell him that? It was meant to be a joke. I hope he doesn’t go and tell the other guys because if he does I won’t think it’s funny.

Well a new week is here, what have I got to look forward to…ah yes the annual review meeting.

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Txt Msgs

February 15, 2008 · Leave a Comment

Text messages are supposed to be simple to understand, easy to use and cheaper than calling. Well…

A couple of days ago I was texting my friend Norton* and he was busy at that moment, he mentioned it in one of his texts, the conversation goes like this…

Me asks: “So are you going for the party?”

30 minutes later

Beep Beep

He says: “Don’t know MEN!”

I read the message and was immediately confused, why is MEN in caps? Was it a typo or is he angry with me? So I thought about it for like 15 minutes and then decided to stop messaging him for a while.

Three days later he dropped in at work and then asked me “what happened did you go for the party?”

Me says: “No”

He says: “Why did you stop messaging that day, were you pissed with me?”

Me says: “Oh!” Yeah and that was a loud one.

The other thing I hate about texting is when people type in short code. It takes me three times the effort to read the message and fully comprehend and usually when I do

Beep Beep

Friend replies: “Dnt tink u unduhstud wat I ment”

BRILLIANT!!

Pokey* loves replying hours later, sometimes days later. Once for fun I sent him a text “I think I’m dying” He replied 2 days later “are you dead?”. Moral of the story don’t contact Pokey in an emergency.

*names changed to protect identity and further confusion.

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Is it ever going to stop?

February 5, 2008 · 3 Comments

I’m scared to take the bus, and whenever I do I’m scared that someone in the bus would suddenly blow the whole thing up.

I’m scared to walk on the roads; because I don’t know at which moment a claymore mine would explode.

I’m scared that something might happen to my family.

I avoid crowded places; this includes malls, shops, restaurants and Fort at all costs.

I frantically reach for the phone every time I hear a siren and if a tyre bursts…

Every time I leave my house, I observe the people, hating the thought of suspecting unsuspecting people. The military urge people to be vigilant, report suspicious looking people. What do suspicious looking people look like? I could look suspicious just by carrying an oversized bag.

I try to live life with some normalcy but unfortunately it’s getting difficult every passing day.

I hope people would wake up and smell the air that’s filled with bloodshed instead of thinking the bloody nightmare is soon to end.

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